Wednesday in Paradise

Today I went to see Julie & Julia with my daughter. It's a Must-See film! And, the main character is a blogger :) She is much more diligent than I... she has a goal. I am thinking about setting a goal as well. Are you interested in suggesting anything? Julie decided to cook her way through Julia Child's French cuisine cookbook in a year. What could I do in a year? What would you be interested in hearing about?

Well, I will qualify for unemployment for a year, if I don't find work in that time. I have already started chronicaling my experience, even though I have missed a few days. My focus has been on laying down my feelings and experiences relating to the lay-off. My hope was that it would be cathartic. So far, all it's done is make me seem self-absorbed and pitiful. After all, I have it SO much better than so many other folks who have lost their jobs.

I got dumped again yesterday.... the work my EX-boss had said I could continue on a freelance basis has been yanked from me as well. I can't see any justification to it, even though I was told it was another cost-savings. Cost-savings? I was only charging a minimal amount... I can't wait to find out what they end up paying another company or consultant to do what I was doing! My hubby wanted to know what I'd done to piss off the man! Oh, I guess I'm a little pissed off about the whole thing. I mean, it sounds like the trainee (straight from kindergarten) is going to be taking on the job of finding a new source to handle the project.

So I guess it's time to sever all ties with the firm. I just hate having it thrust upon me! Seems the worst part is the involuntary ending of so many professional relationships - from co-workers to vendors to business partners... so many people who are going to call and simply be told that I am no longer working there. It almost feels humiliating - as if somehow I hadn't measured up and turned out to be superfluous, even though the boss was clear that my layoff did not reflect on my work personally, just a cost-savings!

Vent, vent, vent... some days it seems all I do is vent.

Well, I guess it's important to blow off the steam so I can focus on moving forward. So, off we go!